here is an explanation of my poem:
it basicly is talking about loosing interest in coasters. i have not lost interest, but they are not as much fun. it also talks about loosing interest in coasters to playing guitar and being in a band. "bright lights, high heights and lush green forests of blis" would be being in a band, bright lights literally the lights on the stage, high heights being "famous" (or at least more so than i would be without my band), the forests being the money i make.
"what was once here has left me behind
and has given up holding me back from paradise" means that my devotion to coasters has disapeared and now there is nothing keeping me from devoting all of my time to coasters.
"why must i not go then? was what i thought to be
friend showdowing my view of what i want? is what
i want taking old memories and friendly faces?" stealing would have been a better word than taking sorry. anyway basicly "why must i not go then?" is asking why shouldn't i give up coasters for music, the part about my friend shadowing the view of what i want is coasters again keeping me away from music, and "what i want" is music and i am asking is that going to completely rid me of all coasters.
"only those who have lasted these tests know
the answers, yet none have succeded to be
victorious over my questions. and still i drift
towards the light, while the darkness holds what
I have learned to call my own." that part talks about how i don't know what will happen and "the darkness" which would be these communities and coasters have become "my own."
"why does the darkness seems wrong? was it not
right when i could not determine? a man of the
mountains lives happily in his cave until he knows
what he is missing, and then he longs for the
unlived life." i don't like that part, but it asks why i don't like coasters anymore, and then answers with the analagy that a cave man wants the outside once he has come in contact with it.
"And so slowly i drift towards that life which has
enthralled me into its slave pits. these slave
pits seems to be my addiction none the less, and
although i have been given the chance for freedom
i have chosen to stay, and now it seems that no
matter what i cannot escape." you should be able to understnad that by now, but it is talking about how i have been "enthralled" (which litterally means to be taking into slavery by something) by music and although i had the chance to not be "enthralled" by it i choose to be "enthralled" and now i can't escape it.
"my questions are a bottomless pit where even
the most inquizitive minds cannot fathome such
inquiries. none know the answers, but those who
listen closely have begun to understand what
can be learned through an open mind." that was a sucky attempt to close out the poem. it just says that no one knows what will happen but if you keep an open mind you can better understand the future.
try to understand that i made up that poem as i went along, without reading over it or doing any sort of modifying to it so it was mostly just a sketch and it is nothing close to my best work.