Suicide

If anyone has ever listened to the song "Dance with the Devil" by Immortal Technique, I suppose that would be a reason to commit suicide. I won't give it away though. Plus the song (to me at least) is worth the buck on iTunes.

Calaway. Your blowing this into a huge deal.
Cool off, like someone else said go outside, fresh air, just do something. Dont sit and complain forever cause things are only gonna get worse, and you loook at indis problem and compare it to your situation, and you tell me who has it worse, dont get mad, but honestly its not that big of a deal, Listen to the Hell Song by Sum 41 and the opening lines will explain it.

Originally posted by CalawayPark

I know there are people who are in far worse situations, and I encourage them to try to bring themselves out of the hole their in, but sometimes you just don't know what to do, and sometimes the only way to solve problems is to make them not exist. You tell me to fix my problems well there's no magic someone who's going to bring my dad back to life or fix my mom's kidneys.

That's when you sit down and deduce which problems you fix and which you live with. Your dad dying is sad but it's not a reason to get depressed. That's selfish and takes the energy that should go toward remembering and focuses upon your "why me" complex. Same with your mom's kidney, give her support, stop giving yourself attention, it's selfish. 20 dollars for groceries? Go get a job and help. You're gay? Big effing deal. It's something you live with. It only becomes a big ass negative to YOU when YOU decide it's going to be. Stop relying on others for gratification. You need to realize that things are only as bad as you make them out to be.

In short: get over yourself. Those problems do not make your life OH SO TERRIBLE, they make it challenging. There are challenges out of your control, but to obsess over your lack of control is just ego. Focus on what you CAN do, not what you can't.

^Amen

And another thing Mr. Sean- If you HONEST TO GOD only have 20 bucks a month (or whatever length of time) for food then I think your mom needs to rethink her priorities... Maybe not buy you a computer, or pay for your internet service. Judging by your picture she could also save a few hundred dollars a month by not buying you so much hair gel. Maybe get government/local support for some things like food? I dont know how they run the show up there in Canada eh. But I know you sitting around here moping about your problems is not helping. I know that 95% or more of the guys downtown in the alley behind the abandoned Easy-Mac factory are NOT thinking about suicide. I'm sure they would LOVE to take every one of the 400 square feet of house you've got there. They are trying to make a better life, trying to get the best out of what they've got... So call me when you reach puberty and tell me how your problems are.

By the way Calaway, if you claim to have life so bad, try living underneath the 12th street bridge and beg for food from passing motorists. That is a hard life. Having a computer, a house, food, internet, land, isn't at all having a bad life.

You have a WONDERFUL life. Millions upon tens of millions upon hundred of millions of humans would do anything to have a life half comparable to yours.
Retrospect my friend.

To quote one of the better songs of 2002;

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
And knowing how to change the things youve been through

I fear Ive come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Stand back to see whats going on
I cant believe this happened to you, this happened to you

Its just a problem that were faced with
Am I not the only one that hates to standby
Complications headed first in this line
With all these pictures running through my mind

Knowing endless consequences
I feel so useless in this
Cant patch that back and as for me, I cant believe

[chorus:]
Part of me, wont agree
Cause I dont know if its for sure
Sunnenly, suddenly
I dont feel so insecure
Anymore

Everybodys got their problems
Everybody says the same things to you
Its just a matter how you solve them
What else are we supposed to do

[chorus x2]

(why do things that matter the most
Never end up cutting close
Now that I find out, it aint so bad
I dont think I knew what I had) [x2]

Done.

Originally posted by bicoastalkid

Originally posted by CalawayPark

I know there are people who are in far worse situations, and I encourage them to try to bring themselves out of the hole their in, but sometimes you just don't know what to do, and sometimes the only way to solve problems is to make them not exist. You tell me to fix my problems well there's no magic someone who's going to bring my dad back to life or fix my mom's kidneys.

That's when you sit down and deduce which problems you fix and which you live with. Your dad dying is sad but it's not a reason to get depressed. That's selfish and takes the energy that should go toward remembering and focuses upon your "why me" complex. Same with your mom's kidney, give her support, stop giving yourself attention, it's selfish. 20 dollars for groceries? Go get a job and help. You're gay? Big effing deal. It's something you live with. It only becomes a big ass negative to YOU when YOU decide it's going to be. Stop relying on others for gratification. You need to realize that things are only as bad as you make them out to be.

In short: get over yourself. Those problems do not make your life OH SO TERRIBLE, they make it challenging. There are challenges out of your control, but to obsess over your lack of control is just ego. Focus on what you CAN do, not what you can't.

I know I don't have the worst life Ragan I friggen said that in the post.

Anyway, BiCoastalKid, I'm not able to get a job yet, hell even the local grocery store won't hire until you're 15 here.

My dad is DEAD. Not dying, he commit suicide.

I do give my mom support for her kidneys, all I was saying was that I have a reason to feel like crap about my life to SFMM Homie because apparently I have a perfect life and I'm only upset because the 'kiddies' make fun of me at school.

Me being gay IS a big deal. My mom can be extremely homophobic and if she found out I was gay she would most likely kick me out, she's kicked my sister out, it wasn't for the same reason but she's not afraid to do it.

I'm literally afraid of her hurting me.

I don't obsess about it. I said I don't want anybodies pity, I don't care anymore about it which I also stated, I've gotten over it, read what I said...

SFMM Homie, she never bought this computer it was given to us. I just wanted to show you WHY I did what I did. I didn't want you to feel sorry for me, and I SAID IN MY MESSAGE that I'm over it. I don't care any more, but that's what made me so upset. I never said I still feel like that.

By the way, I don't use hair gel, I have naturally curly hair but I straighten it. And don't give me some crap like 'Don't buy a straightener if you're short of money' because we've had this thing for like 5 years.

Lets kill your dad, give your mother one failed kidney and one kidney working at 30 percent, take away her job and don't give her disability pay, make you get made fun of at school your entire life, have your mother get her truck stolen so you can't do anything but walk, make it so you'll have to be hiding secrets from your parents because you're afraid of being disowned, force you to live in a 400 square foot house and make sure that if you need anything like furniture you get it from the garage sale down the street. And be sure that 20 dollars for groceries is too much.

Don't think I want you to feel sorry for me- I don't want your pity, I don't feel bad about it any more, but that's a fairly legitimate reason to feel like crap no? Anyway, pity doesn't change crap, it just makes you crave attention.

I know there are people who are in far worse situations, and I encourage them to try to bring themselves out of the hole their in, but sometimes you just don't know what to do, and sometimes the only way to solve problems is to make them not exist. You tell me to fix my problems well there's no magic someone who's going to bring my dad back to life or fix my mom's kidneys.

^With that beaing said. I officially win.

No you don't, you fail misrebly.

Everyone goes through a bad patch in life and you can't compare it to other peoples, because it's always going to be different. What may be bad for you, might be fine for someone else.

I can't believe some people on this site. His dad committed suicide, why the hell does he have it better than Indi?

Honestly. SFMM homie, shut the hell up.

Matt's 100% right. And Calaway said, ha didn't care anymore, so why do you still have to jump on him?

[TheArchitect]

yeah, just leave it. You've obviously never had it hard.
If you've been in a situation where you've taken your life in your own hands or even considered it (and truely mean it, not just being an emo) then i do feel for you. It obviously meant a hell of a lot for you and it's not a nice situation for anyone to be in.

Someone related this to a book, and that was a pretty good relation- we all get our happy endings, its just getting there which is the hard part.

The only 'self harm' ive done is punch a wall, which granted does help. But taking your life is extreme- i've helped a few people over come suicide, i've actaully taken the blade out my 'friends' hand which was an insane experience.

It's a hard one, because it's too easy to percieve a suicider as a weak person. I personally see it as taking the easy way out.

But if your going to be like SFMM Homie and join the list of 'bullie kiddies' then you might as well place the blade in thier hand and unless its Euthinasea then assiting suicide is plain sick and wrong.

"Sometimes i feel like i dont have a partner.
Sometimes i feel like my only freind,
Is the city i live in, the city of Angels.
Lonely as i am, together we cry."

You know whats purely rediculous, posting a topic like this on something as informal as the internet.
In the long run, you dont have the decency and respect to think that someone could be very sensitive about this particular subject.
And instead of greiving to yourself, pulling other people into the conversation and getting people upset over it.
Dude ive no disrespect for anyone or yourself but why would a bunch of ROLLERCOASTER enthusiasts, of which you have never met, want to know about someone close to you topping themselves?
Talk to God about your problems, not us.

P.S SFMM HOMIE is not God.
You digg?

^Great song, chilis for life. And its true I'm not god, I'm just having fun. I just read a book yesterday that might be of help to many of you: For One More Day by Mitch Albom. It's about a guy who attempts suicide but realizes life is too precious. It is one of the better books I've ever read. As God I order you to read it Calaway.

Anyway, BiCoastalKid, I'm not able to get a job yet, hell even the local grocery store won't hire until you're 15 here.

My dad is DEAD. Not dying, he commit suicide.

There are other ways to make money.

Yes, I know your dad is dead. If you understood grammar you wouldn't have completely misread that sentence.

Originally posted by bicoastalkid

Anyway, BiCoastalKid, I'm not able to get a job yet, hell even the local grocery store won't hire until you're 15 here.

My dad is DEAD. Not dying, he commit suicide.

There are other ways to make money.

Yes, I know your dad is dead. If you understood grammar you wouldn't have completely misread that sentence.

Oops, my bad, sorry I accidentally flipped dead and is because I was a little upset when reading it lol.

Originally posted by SFMM homie

^Great song, chilis for life. And its true I'm not god, I'm just having fun. I just read a book yesterday that might be of help to many of you: For One More Day by Mitch Albom. It's about a guy who attempts suicide but realizes life is too precious. It is one of the better books I've ever read. As God I order you to read it Calaway.

See guys he's not getting kicks out of making people upset, a sense of humour its whats needed in drole and dis-heartning threads like this. I bid thee well done.
And yeah Chilli's are the best band to walk the earth, and on the subject of books, Anthonly Kleidis's biography is an awesome book, its taught me alot and i think you should all read it!






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RHCP are God =].